Tuesday, September 25, 2007

No pictures, just thoughts

So, I've been thinking a lot lately...probably too much. I haven't been out for a while to take any really good shots. I have been taking a few snapshots of Eden, but am still so preoccupied with other "issues" that photography has been put on the back-burner. Aside from the fact that I don't have extra money right now to splurge on a good lens or a good editing program, I feel a little overwhelmed right now. I really feel like I have a deep passion for it, but wonder if it is a good use of so much of my time. It's all about balance, I guess.
Most of you who look at this blog know me well enough to know that we are living with my parents right now. We have been here for nearly 7 months! We moved back from Texas after only 6 months there because of Jer's unexpected job changes. We really do feel so blessed to have been there even though it was for such a short time and I do miss it at times. I miss the people that we became friends with and that were in our wonderful ward there. I miss having a house of my own, but that is not a big deal, just an inconvenience. However, Jeremy loves his job and they love him. Also, we are incredibly relieved because we finally are closing on our house in TX this week. What an answer to so many prayers.
It has been such an odd time for me because I am back in the home that I grew up in, resisting the temptation to slip back into childhood habits, trying to establish some sort of routine....which is all but impossible in this crazy house where there are always people coming and going and multiple plans attempting to be achieved. We haven't felt settled for what seems like a long time. Although my parents are so easy to live with and we are so grateful for their kindness and love, I am definitely looking forward to having my own space and routine where I don't have to worry about imposing on anybody.
I am just rambling now....sorry! Jeremy is out of town for work and he is usually the person that I ramble to. So much thinking (too much!) I have to have an outlet, I guess.
Anyway, that, among other things, has been keeping me from some of my interests such as photography. I will say that it has been so fun to spend so much time with my sweet Eden. She is just growing up so fast, learning something new every day it seems. We have been laughing so much these past couple of days. She really has such an imagination! She is always telling me stories about her dolls or about something that she did a while ago (which is always "yesterday"). Her new thing is that when she sees a toy that she wants, she says "Maybe Christmas could bring that to me!" I could go on and on about the funny things that she says and does...I will spare you. I definitely am so blessed and so grateful to be a mother. What an awesome responsibility! Overwhelming at times, yes! But wonderful! It really gives me a daily opportunity to have a glimpse into the eternities and into how our Heavenly Father feels about each of us. What an amazing gift! I am so grateful for her and for Jeremy, who works so hard so that I can stay at home and fulfill that role completely. Although life has its trials and unexplained challenges, I wouldn't trade it for anything!

2 comments:

rangersRus said...

Hey Andrea!

I loved your rambling post! It was very sweet:) We need more like mixed in with your photography of course:)I'm so happy to hear you are closing on your house here! That is exciting!

I miss Eden in nursery:)

Brent and Tracie said...

Don't worry. I figure the time we have away from our husbands help us appreciate them more. Brent is gone for weeks at a time with the military. We both have a happy reunion when he comes home.